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| done accepting stupidity. sympathy denied. you're the one that keeps getting your self into this mess. it's because you're stupid -__-. I'm embracing apathy with open arms.
My mom believes when you love someone have to stick it with them even though they do stupid and harmful things. hahah fuck that, that's not who i am. Yeah call me cold hearted but to endure pain because someone is too stupid to do the right thing that's not the life i want to live. To do so would to be stupid. I don't want to associate my self with stupid people anymore. I'm not talking about the 'I can't pass the test stupid' but the 'I don't have any common sense and will do reckless and just dumb things without thinking about the consequences stupid' & to repeat your mistake gah!!! learn learn dammit learn from your mistakes, but people never do they. I was stupid for accepting and caring for these people, because I shouldn't have. Well i learn my mistake. I'm not gonna thank those who have wrong me, but they have made me stronger.
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| Ambition was one of the things I allowed to slip away, now I want to regain it.
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| So today a girl asked me if I could have 3 wishes what would they be. I was totally dumbstruck I didn't know what to tell her. So after much thought this is what they are:
If I had 3 wishes:
- An answer tree, it doesn't have to be a tree but anything that can answer all my questions about anything. This magical tree of knowledge must be able to give the best answer about anything. I can ask it stuff about life, the future, people, the past (the real past, not the ones kept by historians), and questions about myself. I could even ask it to tutor me in math.
- Control time be able to control time. Go back in time, stop time, or go forward. Kinda like Masi Okra.
- This is the power I would need to tell my mom any bad news. I want the ability to calm people down or make some excite or happy exactly like what jasper has. Manipulate people's feeling, haha it's not half as bad as it sounds.
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| I receive some graved news on Friday. I realize this week is going to probably be the most challenging week of my life even though for most it will be a time to celebrate. Im not going to submit to defeat, I won't. Thank you. In times like these I discover my true allies and friends. Fake friends will say they will be there for you and tell you should accept defeat. True friends will fire you up and tell you to keep fighting, even when you say that it is over, and that they will be along side with you in the battle. It's ironic that around the last week of school I discover my true friends. UB graduations was today. After talking to them I felt really relieve, i always thought that they were only there to help me get into a four year school but i realize i made life long friends. I know I can turn to them in the future when I need them and they will be there, they are a jem.Nobody can be truly fortunate their whole life and never face hardship. We don't get a choose if something bad is going to happen to us, but we do have a choice of either walking away defeated or learning something and thus become wiser.I know now that even if i go down, that i took something from this. I understood the true value of fierce and true friends. I love upward bound family.
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| I'm not excited for college. I don't look forward to meeting new people and attending humongous classes. I feel that college will just be an extended version of high school except the classes will be harder and with more catty Asians. One of the presentator at school quoted that only 3 out of 10 people will graduate in 5 years and less. Also that 3 out of 10 students will drop out of college within their first 2 years. that will be me.
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